hmm. am not going to be using here anymore, so join me on either emiforever.wordpress.com( which i haven't updated since i've had it) or unconditional2009(ditto)( a website for a original fiction which i'm writing but having extreme writer's block with). thanks for the memories though. will prob still be using my lj or other stuff though, we'll seeeee.

why in the world is everyone such a busybody ?

i mean seriously, people, get a life. if it doesn't affect or involve you, please don't bother. anyway, for all the kiasu and kaypoh people out there who think they missed out on the action, we (as in my apt people) seem to be having a conflict ? <- notice the question mark there ? it's because i had no damned idea the problem really existed. or maybe i was just too oblivious to it or sth.

but anyway good news people, i've decided to take the issue directly by its horns, figuratively of course, and tackle the problem.

i mean, we're already 18, coming 19 year olds(for me).we should not act like those brainless litlle kiddies who ignore each other until the problem explodes in the face. i brought it up this morning (florida time), but decided we can talk about it later cause we all need to rush off to work. i believe almost nothing is unsolvable and i refuse to hide just because some kaypoh wants to talk about it behind my back. i do not need and will not be angry about such inane rubbish because seriously, i have more important things to do.

and i will be outright about it. I REFUSE TO LOCK MY BLOG THIS TIME BECAUSE ANY COMMENT HERE IS OPEN TO THE PUBLIC. THIS APPLIES TO MY WORDPRESS AS WELL. I HAVE ALL THE RIGHT IN THE WORLD TO SAY WHAT I WANT AND IF ANYONE IS OFFENDED, TOO BAD. DON'T BE CHILDISH AND JUST TELL ME DIRECTLY.

haven't been updating here since i had my wordpress blogg. and yeah, i said before that this is more for random thoughts and feelings kinda babble, so i shall.

i'm in florida now and i certainly did like the first few days of it. but now after slightly more than two weeks, i'm not so sure. of course i still enjoy having fun and living here indeed, but i genuinely dislike work here. it's so predictable, boring and unchallenging. there's nothing i've not done before and in fact, have done before but has passed that stage. like throwing rubbish.

oh my god.

this program is fairly overrated in that sense. you see them all having fun and games on the video, ENJOYING AND LOVING WORK. but remember, there's no mention of having to throw rubbish for hours on hand. it's so ridiculous i could cry. and the worst part, i think i'm the only one facing this problem. everyone else seems to be fine and dandy.
 
therefore, no one is sympathetic nor wants to be sympathethic. i hate myself for wanting sympathy but the fact is that work really undermines my ability. do you know i actually quite dread having to go to work nowadays ? maybe it's just the first few weeks and it's too early to say that whether i like it or not but for now i'm disliking it, and i'm disliking people for not being sympathethic and i'm disliking myself for disliking others because they're not sympathethic and myself not being able to be optimistic about things.

GOD. i need to perk up. or this will honestly be one hell of a disgusting and miserable four months.

this is a emo and miserable post. please read wordpress for happier news. thanks.

helllo everybodyy. i'm alive and well at florida. read about the interesting travel adventures on my wordpress instead okay ? everyone take care!

wheeee. past few days have been over pretty quickly. last day of work on sat, then yesterday was super busy too. first went to get my apron because i forgot to bring back on sat( so stupid of me siaaa).

came home to pack stuff, then went out to meet my snsb saxes juniors at plaza singapura. plus christina. who was like super late. came after we had our lunch AND dessert. hahaha.

rushed off after that to meet my mom and brothers at my aunt's house(mum's sis) in WOODLANDS. it's like super far can. but at least christina was gg west area to buy stuff too. so we rotted on train together. i kinda got lost taking the bus from woodlands regional interchange, mostly because of my own carelessness. couldn't recognize my own surroundings(hey, they repainted the blocks okayy. all those HDBs all look alike!) and ended up one bus stop after. so walked lor. hahaha. ate dinner there, took pictures. then went home.

went home with them after that. was supposed to go to my workplace to clear locker and return uniforms, then have farewell supper, but my mom was like EMO. i guess she was upset that i've been gg out quite a lot recently. till relatively late too. but nevertheless i still went out, i think she was kinda pissed la. so i went, we had supper(as elvin terms it, THE LAST SUPPER -.-) at steamboat at bugis. havent gone there since i was year one ! the one i always used to go with my jie and jie fu plus charlie. the same one i went with my beloved secretaries. one of those super memory filled places. but i had fun. so yeah la. was rather emo yesterday, but not as much as i expected myself to be.

now i need to go pack somemore. still have to buy some stuffs, return library book and change money. yay. everyone, i'll see ya in january. miss me, just msn/email. i'll be giving phone details once i get my american sim card(hahah. wonder if that's what they call it there).

and i just bloody read that hurricane gustav hitting my beloved new orleans. WTHHHH. i wanted to go there so badly. we'll have to see again i guess.

anyway. i'll be posting again in another day or so ? take care guys. pics in a sep post. or not just go to my facebook or friendster ba. stupid thingy doesnt let me upload properly. AND...






i love everyone.

yep. topic is acheron. jells bought the book yesterday and i'm super looking forward to reading it. for the sake of those who dont know who he is, acheron apostolos parthenopaeus is the titular character of sherrilyn kenyon's popular dark hunter series. and :P for those who are rolling eyes at this post already (read: huijoo).
 
anyway, this post is why i like ash. or in general, the sort of men i like.

i like acheron/ash because firstly, he's a very responsible person and has superb leadership skills. being head honcho of the group of unruly immortals isn't exactly a walk in the park, but he always rises up to the occasion and does it so well. i like people who can lead and convince people. amazingly charismatic.

two. he can look past your exterior and get to know who you truly are. that's majorly important. i'm tired of people who look merely on the outer facade and not in the heart.

three. he's calm and controlled most of the time, but capable of showing true emotion.

four. he knows what he can do and should do. and shouldn't do.

five. sarcastic but non-irritating/annoying sense of humor. witty.

six. he will be there in the worst of situations and saves the day. not that he has a hero complex, but he is someone that can be counted on to be there for you.

seven. he's gentle yet strong.

eight. he pretty much doesnt care a damn about society. no. not that i like rebels, but the point is, i dont like staid perpetual rule followers.

nine.he is superbly well off and good looking. and tall and fit. okay. not the most important point in the world, but something one does care about.

of course ash is not the most perfect of men. like for example, his flawed and complex past. i think a lot of people, maybe me included, can't see past that. it's hard being with someone with such an overwhelmingly complicated past you know.

it's really hard to find someone like that. really. literally impossible. i'm amazed how people can look past their significant other's flaws and stay together. especially for those married couples. how do they stay so constant ? and why does one stray after saying the wedding vows ? where is the love ?

dont know about you, dear reader, but i feel eternity seems like a dream. i'll probably never find someone whose flaws i can look past and who can look past my flaws to stay till forever.
 
because, it's all my fault.

HAHAH. i've decided to do two posts instead of one today. why ? dont know. just felt like it.((:
 
okay. so here goes first one...

4 days to DISNEY!

hahahah. excited excited.

i havent finished packing, if anyone was wondering. but at least i'm almost completing. like so much clothes to pack. i have no damned idea how to bring everything back later. goodness. and still dunno about the LAGs thing. feeling fairly brainless actually. but yay. disney!

i met up with stef yesterday. was supposed to go for freshmen bash with her but i couldn't make it because of quite a few reasons. yeah. so i met up with her and told her to take care of herself. and it applies for everyone reading this post, please do take care of yourselves okay ? especially those going on itp, please please do take good care of yourself. friends or acquaintances whatever, same. keep healthy, stay sane.

oh. and this morning, i almost killed myself. or actually to be precise, i almost got killed. i woke up with no one at home, cos parents off at work, brothers both in school. grandma at daycare centre, grandpa went market. so i happily ate breakfast, was considering going out for a walk but the weather sucked. only after breakfast, i realized there was a weird smell emanating around my kitchen/dining room. i got up this morning with a slightly blocked nose, so the smell was on/off. i had suspicions but didnt really bother. only then i panicked a little and went to the stove.

the stupid gas was on.

i could have caused a bloody explosion or gassed myself to death can. nagged at grandpa who seems to be primary suspect. so eveyone. please keep yourself safe too. scary sia.

okay.

next post coming right up. it's more a reflection piece actually. on love. so non-sappy people, don't read.

sorry for the un-updated-ness[no. it's not a word. i came up with it myself] of my blog, have been having exams and not particularly in mood to write long posts. here's a rather brief update of what's uppp.

start with monday yeah. cant really exactly remember what i actually did last week beside rot and study(only a little little bit). monday was resorts exam. i spent most of the day doing last min mug and paranoiding. almost came close to hyperventilation -.-
so dressed up, went school, waited for lifang to help me do eyeliner and eyeshadow cos i dont have anymore. did makeup, went for exam. was reasonably do-able considering the fact barely anything went into my mind the whole revision time.
finished early, couldn't leave cos exceeded last 15 mins. sat there and rotted, checked paper. left immediately after signing for the marks.

TOOK FOREVER to wait for cab. took to orchard hotel. easily found ballroom but didnt dare go in cos it was like super noisy and had plenty of people. of which i dont know. called gwen, she didnt pick up cos too noisy i suppose. then called elvin who later kindly came out to look for me. hahah.

so i went in, the usual rounds of "emily lai le/emily is here~". plonked down a few minutes and was offered a beer. hahah.
in general the dinner and dance was not quite what i expected or anticipated. food was so so. in fact, not very nice. but as i always say, it's the people that make the event enjoyable. i did pretty much have fun i guess. danced a bit, drank a bit. though still fell a little short of my expectations.

we went cineleisure kbox later( me and some colleagues) and we sang till morning. freakin' hoarse and super sore throat ! we took early train back. on the way discussing a fairly delicate topic which i guess i shouldn't elaborate too much. but still i say, it's wrong to do such a thing. waited a while at amk macs with elvin before i took bus home.

showered, slept till afternoon. woke up, msged jells to meet and eat breakfast/lunch/dinner and study at library. tues was spent like that. today morning too, did last minute study, went down to school to do ASM. it was horrible. seriously. fucking industry agreements and captains. i honestly hope i dont have to repeat module for this. it's ridiculous.

later, we(jells, sihua,lifang, aihui, kimbert and huijoo) went to eat at shokudo, jap pasta restaurant. once again, at cineleisure. i think the food isnt that nice. shouldn't have chosen the mentaiko pasta! feelin' a litlle cheated though dessert was okeee. shared with huijoo.

so here i am now, blogging. feeling sleepyish already. havent slept much the past days. sleepy and irritable. 

my plans for tmr:-
pack luggage in morning
go change more US dollars
watch my huan zhugege.(borrowed so long still havent finished!)
have dinner with aunt(gu gu: dad's sis visiting from US) and family
go smu freshmen bash with stef in late evening.

friday
WORK

saturday
WORK LAST DAY-
mini farewell dinner/supper for meee

sunday
auntie(shen shen) coming in morning i think
meet juniors at 1230 dhoby ghaut have lunch
go aunt's house for dinner about 5 plus.
return uniform/locker ? if not on monday lor.

monday
return uniform/locker keys
pack any last min stuffs

tuesday
jells pick me up at ??. some weirdo, ungodly ulu hour.

SO LITTLE DAYS LEFT!! disney's really so soon. and to think i used to think it'll never come. i'll really miss everyone here. seriously. oh. i have another blog. www.emilyloves.wordpress.com i think. haven't written anything there yet, but it's mainly for my disney trip. i think it'll be a more muted version of this lj emiloves cos i want my parents to be able to read it too (: HAHAH

so read the other one for more day to day experiences, i'm keeping this one for inner ramblings and bleh for all. so no more time to meet- everyone take care okay!

today a customer asked me if there was any charge on the tea, cos i brought the bill to their table and they discovered that tea(also known as ocha) was actually free. hence the pun on cha-arge! no cha-arge! okay. i think i'm going mad/have gone mad after being at work for the past two days. working very long shifts again. been relatively tired but happyish. really. i do like working actually. it's a kind of entertainment and part of my social life(albeit a very limited and boring one).

everyone tells me they'll miss me when i leave for USA in two weeks time. and i think i'll miss them too. i'll miss everyone here in singapore. my family, all my friends, my colleagues. sometimes i wonder how people can really migrate to somewhere else and never come back. don't they think back and realize there's so many people left behind ? i'll probably never understand huh.

well. but life does change and move on. we can't perpetually remain constant and stagnant. we have to evolve and transform into someone better. i think i might be rather different when i come back. but then again, my surroundings would have changed too. will i still be able to go back to where i was ? that remains to be seen.

on a lighter note... i've EATEN A LOT this past three days. in fact, i've eaten a lot this past whole week, starting from tuesday when i ate at my workplace. on wed i did eat at my workplace too during break. ahahaa. then thursday i went out with my mom, so ate loads again. friday they had prayers so we ate the chicken and other buffet stuffs that were used as offerings. today i wanted to cook my own stuff, but got dragged by jasmine and zhao li to go eat kampong chicken rice. omg. i'm like some kind of piggy la. well. tmr it probably ain't any better since i'm going to my grandpa's club so i think there'll be loads of hainanese food to eat again. lols. my poor stomach. at this rate i'll probably gain weight instead of losing it. and it isn't as if i'm thin. sigh.

hahah. i have a figure, just not a very satisfactory one.

OH. talking about figures, michael phelps has a great bod! seriously. i'm so wowed by him. he's fit, rather good looking, ambitious and can swim REALLY WELL! err. if you have no idea who phelps is, you've prolly been living under a rock too long and it's time for you to come out. he's the best american swimmer ever and has won 7 gold medal is Beijing olympics 2008. he is about to win his eighth gold to beat american mark spitz's record. and i'm sure he will. he's like so unbeatable!

hahah. i had a lot of fun todayy! after a long and tedious psycho(both literally and figuratively) mug for psycho, we finally took the test today morning. so jells, candy, lifang and i went out to play! was supposed to have more people, but then shimin and sihua had other stuff to do/people to meet and huijoo had driving practical suddenly and randomly, so it was only 4 of us lovely ladies.

first stop: my work place to EAT. cos candy was saying she hadn't eaten sushi tei in a while, so we decided to go there. WE LITERALLY STUFFED OURSELVES TO DEATH.  seriously. i think we ate a lot. tempura pasta, salad, garlic fried rice, agedashi tofu, ebi mentai, couple of other side dishes and dessert. XD 

and topped off with a discount.

happiness to the maxx. my colleagues were also very nice and helpful (hahah!) so it was a great meal. err. with the exception of a little fiasco at the end but it was fantastic still. so being very extremely full, we went off to play. wanted to catch a movie at amk hub at first, but nothing much was showing. in the end, we went to sing kbox instead. havent sang kbox in a really long while, so sang my heart out. jells simply watched three of us in utter amazement and disbelief. atmosphere was nice and high ((: it was also much more expensive then i would have expected(stupid 12 dollar tidbits!). but since we had fun, cant begrudge them ba.

candy and jells went off home after that, but lifang and i wandered into this fashion because i wanted to shop and look at dresses. i know what everyone's thinking: eeyer. this fashion ?? i dont particularly like this fashion either, but i thought the dresses were quite nice. my little escapade turned out my D and D dress! it's a black-white two-tone little number. 

i like. and i got a 20% discount, which makes it extremely afforadable. so big smileeee.

so now left only shoes ? i originally wanted to recycle, but i need a new pair of black heels anyway(who doesn't?) so i guess i'll buy a new pair soon. still with plenty of time to spare too.

anyway, after spending a lot of money today, it's back to my frugal lifestyle tmr at work. SIGH. hahah. but still, i had fun. and that's all that matters!

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